Monday, September 13, 2010

1000 Gifts

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I have been neglecting my gratitude posts of late, and to be honest, I am not much in the mood today. Although I am deeply grateful for the spiritual discipline of gratitude, and DO have much to be thankful for, today I just don't feel like recording them, or writing about it. But because of that very thing, I am.

On Friday I found out that I did not get the second job I applied for, even after a second interview that I felt very good about. I loved the people in the department and I was really excited about the chance to work there.

Since I found out that I didn't get it, I have been grieving the loss of that excitement, but also with a deeper, more general feeling of rejection that comes and goes. I am making the effort to really seek God and His dreams for me, with the awareness and wonder of the idea that He has something even better in mind for me.

Still, it has taken the wind out of my sails. I had hoped to start working today. I had hoped that we would have a better sense of finances, that the strain of medical check-ups, dental check-ups, eye exams, setting up the house, saving for a car, getting new driver's licenses, would be eased. I am chagrined to realize that once again I have taking on the burden of those things, instead of giving them to, leaving them with the Lord.

So, once again, I take the time to ponder, to count, take note.

From Troy:
221. Sunshine
222. A visit from Grandpa
223. Kristen stopping by on Tuesday.
224. A bunch of friends who showed up to help us unpack our shipping container.
225. A generous dad who bought us a new laptop.
226. Nic's perfect score on his Social Studies test and his perfect smile as a result.
227. We are no longer sleeping on the floor!
228. Curtains in the living and dining room.
229. An inexpensive white wicker dresser and mirror for Meg's room.
230. Meeting more neighbors: Mike and Susan and Rachelle.
231. Buying lemonade from our back-alley neighbors.
232. A bathed dog :)
233. A wife who had the foresight to see that gratitude on the kitchen table is a GREAT idea.
And me...
234. Aldi fresh pizza
235. Cheap sushi, walking-distance from my house :)
236. Unpacking.
237. Having my kitchen back :)
238. Planning and cooking yummy meals for friends.
239. Road trip with my Dad.
240. California Pizza Kitchen Greek pizza.
241. Culver's roast beef sandwiches.
242. Chocolate milkshakes.
243. Plans to start a home group soon.
244. Fresh vegetables from a relative's garden.
From Troy again...
245. Getting to see the Crulls on their furlough.
246. Nic's teachers looking out for him.
From Ben (who recently moved to Chicago :) )
247. Troy with car to rescue you when you're lost.
248. New friends and old friends welcoming you to a new city.
249. Nic's famous tea.
And me again...
250. A quick trip to MN for Labor Day and the fair.
251. The hospitality of friends.
252. Being in love with my husband, and he with me.
253. Safe journeys.
254. A very fun second interview.
255. Friends who pick up the phone and call.
256. Encouragement from friends when you don't get the job.
257. The reminder that God is in charge of providing for my family, not me.
258. Visiting one of the friendliest churches we have been to, ever.
259. Lunch with Sabrina.
260. Beautiful fall weather.
261. Furniture from the alley/dumpster :)
262. Chatting with my daughter on fb from across the room.
263. Time to continue getting settled.

Friday, September 10, 2010

7 Quick Takes Friday #7

  1. God has again been reminding me that I am not in charge of providing for my family. I'm only in charge of my own obedience to the things He asks me to do, the opportunities He gives me, my responses to Him. For weeks I have been putting my life "on hold" a little bit; putting things off "until I have a job." He has gently reminded me that until He answers, I need to do the best that I can with what I have NOW. 
  2. I am so glad the cooler weather is here! I'm still a bit shocked it came so Madrid, the scorching temps often followed us into September. But cooler weather makes me more motivated to do everything, especially cook :)
  3. I am praying that God is going to provide a way for me to attend Women of Faith this year. It's always such an encouragement to me. I'm dreaming of attending the one in Milwaukee with my friend Sabrina, so we'll see what God does :)
  4. I'm not getting anything to say this, but this stuff is still the best thing I have found to clean carpets. I have been using it for years. Our downstairs is carpeted, and the hallway in particular was pretty stained when we moved in. I got some of the Resolve this week and it looks so much better already!
  5. One of the best things about being back in America is getting to see people we love. I'm really excited that our niece Jessica is coming to visit in October, and my baby brother is coming for Thanksgiving. 
  6. Our friend Jennifer is lending us her car for a few months, and that is SUCH a blessing. It makes it easier to get around, and has bought us some much needed time to start saving to buy a car of our own.
  7. Sometimes you can learn good lessons from your dog :) Even though she has traits that get on my nerves, (EVERY.SINGLE.DAY) she teaches me about hope and never giving up. Every time she sees a squirrel, she just knows that this is the one that won't get away. That, and the fact that if you just keep looking, you'll probably find something tasty to snack on along the way. :)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Mrs. Cranky-Pants

Today has not been great, but after a brief pity-party, I intend to be over it by tomorrow.

I was telling my spiritual director yesterday how I have had a strong sense of God granting us so many good things, things we have been hoping for and dreaming of.

Today, I found out that I did not get the second job I applied for at the nearby college. That was hard news; I really loved the people I met and the department seemed great to work in. I really wanted that job. The impression I got was that they thought I was overqualified for the job. This is gratifying, but also a bit discouraging because it's really the kind of job I want.

I know that God has the perfect job in mind for me. From my limited perspective, I can't imagine what that might be be.

But I do indeed believe that God sees me and knows what is best for me. So even though I had really hoped to start working on Monday, I will continue to believe that God is granting good things for us. Even though I really wanted to make a budget, I will continue to trust in God's timely provision for all our needs.

I have kind of been putting off blogging as something I would do when we returned to normal schedule, but since that may take a little longer than I hoped, I'm going to try and get back in a good rhythm again.
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