Friday, February 26, 2010
But now that it's here, I am so sad I'm not there. I wish that I had tried to make it work out, to take the kids with us, or something. I don't know. I know it's another part of the grieving.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
I am a Canadian; I have a Canadian passport. How much time have I spent living in Canada? Not much. So everywhere I have lived for most of my life, I have been a "legal" alien.
This stresses me out to no end. I have always been stressed by any immigration process. Even when I was a kid and we would drive into Canada from the US on furlough, I would be a nervous wreck.
My US green card is expired, so now I have to reapply, which stresses me to the point of tears. Thankfully Troy can help with this one. All I have to say is that after I am all legal in the US again, I will definitely be getting naturalized, if they will have me!
I think 41 years as an alien is quite enough!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
I have been trying to go through things little by little in preparation for our move.When I was sorting through some paperwork this week, I found this Psalm I had written in pencil on lined paper
"Give me your lantern and compass,
give me a map,
So I can find my way to the sacred mountain,
to the place of your presence.
To enter the place of worship
meet my exuberant God
Sing my thanks with a harp
magnificent God, my God." Psalm 43:3-4 The Message
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Heb 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see., originally uploaded by Katrina †.
Now that everyone knows
Now, when we don't know for sure if we have a job for July
Or a place to live that we can afford
Now, when we have to think about schools
That are decent and safe and not too daunting
Now is the time for faith.
Now is the time to trust
In God's provision of income
So many things to wonder
But now. Now is the time
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
- Reading. I have a stack of books. Show and tell on those later.
- Rest. Sounds crazy, but I am going to take more naps. Often I will be tired, but I end up sitting with my computer in my lap instead of dozing on the couch.
- Write letters. I used to write letters galore. Letters with stickers, written in circles or multi-colored ink. Over the past decade, I have lost that habit. Mailing things is expensive and annoying (in Spain you can't just buy a book of stamps at the grocery check-out.) Then I had a brainwave. I am going to write letters, then scan them and email them to people :)
- Journal. I also used to journal like crazy. I have some kind of block about it now, and I am having a hard time getting it back. I am hoping that with a little breathing room maybe it'll come a bit easier.
- Update my prayer book. Awhile ago I started a photo album that I use to pray for people. I just got a new print cartridge for my photo printer and I am looking forward to spending time printing some photos.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Our friend Kelly introduced us to this term; which basically means making room for one more person on the couch. I like to use it in more general terms too. To me, spreading in will mean that I have fewer moments where I feel like “butter spread over too much bread.”
One thing we hope to gain in our move this summer is a spreading in of our life. At the moment, we live on the edge of Madrid. Most of our friends don’t live anywhere near us. It takes the kids and I between 30-40 minutes to drive to their school in the morning, more if there is bad traffic. Even our physical life is spread too far out. No kids can randomly come over after school, no friends a few doors down can come over for an impromptu dinner. When there are school meetings that don’t start until 5, that means I have to send the kids home with someone else so they can eat dinner and get homework done, and I won’t be home until less than hour before they get in bed.
For now, we flex and deal with it. But I am looking forward to spreading in, soon.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
But still, I have felt ready for a break from church being my job, with all the responsibility and pressure it brings.
Last night at church, the topic was dealing with transition in appropriate and healthy ways. One of the points was acknowledging the things we lose through a given transition, which was a good reminder for me. Even though I am looking ahead to the next chapter in our lives, leaving Spain was not a decision we made lightly or with ease.
As I watched people show up to church last night and they just kept coming, and there were new faces, and several families with kids, I felt that "church planter thrill." It's always so amazing and humbling to me when new people show up and seem to like it...it surprises me. That's weird, I know. And I watched Meg greet all the new people with her habitual friendliness and sweet spirit, and I marveled at how she is already such a little church planter.
So, even though I know God is taking us on, to the next thing He has for our family, I wanted to make sure I take note of the things I am losing.